apprehension

gosh. im trapped again. caught in the middle of making a huge huge decision. i dont know if im ready and if im actually throwing myself into a sea of deadly, ice-cold knives. im so scared to be disappointed again. i hate myself for being such a coward sometimes. my hair stands and my heart beats a thousand times faster every time i think of it. im going M-A/E-D. help! argh!

god, i need your wisdom.

phrase of the day: "mian zi zhi duo sao?!"

heavy hearted

i had that dream again.

it felt so real and im afraid. freaked. lost.

i know i had cried. even though i wake up with no tears in my eyes.

im scared.

JUNE JUBILEE

what a great month it has been!

*fewer tuition lessons
which meant that i need not nag so much hence fewer sore throat days. BUT tuition was supposed to start today and i had totally forgotten about it. oops

* independence week
the week when i had to play MUM+MAID=MUMAID (looks like muhmuud/mohamed. haha) and wake up at like 6am almost everyday to prep poppit for school. wahkao! but it was indeed novel and we sorta messed up the house and did stuff which we normally would have been scolded for. shhhh! grinz.

*SBSP
daily doses of crappy humour from that yellow square sponge and his five-sided gay friend. haha. i seriously think it is more appropriate as an adult cartoon. an almost suitable replacement for the weekly dose of yellow four-fingered pple cartoon which i always miss. I NEED A VCR!! the cartoon's gone now.. im considering buying the vcd, but qt ex leh.

*students-on-vacation outings
-KBOX (with aunties included) haha.. i still remember the one verse slower singing.

-ZOO giraffes!!! penguins!!! lambs!!! haha.. all my faves. but i tell you, the sheeps' bleating is damn "MAN"-ly. damn scary! and cows are damn big! which is scary too!

-YUKI YAKI err... more apt as yaki yaki.. haha.. but we were damn funny. sorry TARO, couldnt wait for you. next time okie? hehe.

-BALLOONS haha.. what can i say.. we're just soooo childish. the balloons are still loittering in my house lor. kao.

-PRATA PRATA PRATA for breakfast and supper. no wonder i cant lose weight. oh nana, we just found another prata place. prob eating again sometime soon. haha..

-DURIANS at void deck, at mini-amphitheatre, and we had them yesterday after dinner again! gosh! i feel my throat screaming!

-MOVIES more coming up rite?! no more popcorn spilling hopefully... haha..

-CHALET/BBQ was DA BEST! what else can i say.. what a great finale for the hols. THANKS, you guys for everything! I feel so blessed. now i have to fulfill my word and be a vegetarian. haha.

-ESCAPE left me badly bruised. ouch!

-BOWLING totally overdosed!

and how can i forget AR-CA-ADE.
haha.. we're finally improving on our world combat! FINALLY! (that reminds me.. eh remember to take the combat ration from nick. haha.)

i had a blast! thanks for so much fun and laughter.

just too lazy

havent been updating this blog for quite awhile liao and not much activity in the tagboard too huh. :( nonetheless, i apologise to anyone who actually visits my blog and expects to see new updated entries but leaves empty-handed. and even YOU! you, who try to publicise pornographic websites on my tagboard. haha. but seriously, i hardly even come online these days. i've lost interest in online games, fewer friends come online to chat and im happier and more satisfied keeping myself occupied with offline activities during this break. a good read really makes good company, but im finishing the book so i need to go good-book hunting soon. any suggestions, anyone? the scv preview channel is also a pretty good alternative. too bad there aint no sports channels in the programme schedule. i miss soccer and nba too. the finals are coming but i doubt mediacorp would be so kind to air them on their channels. JO your place available? :)

this week will be a significant one in my life. let's see how i fare.